Late One

What does it take to go away for four months? What do you find to hold on to to make it through….. Is it the beautiful person you married, or maybe your kids… maybe the area you live in, or something as simple as your own home made coffee? Have you started seeing visions of the person you love when you close your eyes? What drives you to start the day, to actually get out of bed in the morning even though it really feels like you just went to sleep? How about next year when you have to leave for longer thanks to politics you don’t believe in???  =|  How do you keep your sanity in all this?

In nine more days, it’ll be ten solid years of employment that has taken you around the world a couple of times. You’ve seen more foreign country than a rich man has seen of his own backyard. You’ve had to pack your clothes so many times; it’s pointless to create a list any more. What makes up for the time that you’ve had to leave? ….. sending flowers to let that special person know you haven’t forgotten them, emails ….surprise gifts in the mail.

Alright I get it.. you hate being away, your in absolute love with your family and can’t wait to get back to them, but all of this is a major part of your job….If that’s the case, is there a government job that won’t deploy my ass and let me continue to work in the same career field?      I miss you guys tons.. Everyone one of you. There is not a day that goes by that all of you are not in my thoughts. I got to see my Aunt Judy, Uncle Shawn, and my cousin Dustin last time.. AWESOME!!! My mom and sister, my niece Bre!!! My brother and his family. Unbelievable on how much can change and at the same time it’s still the same place. Lara and I went and saw Nickelback LIVE …  Now that was fucking awesome!!!! And then the day before I left this time around we got to take Phia to Water Country USA…. Couldn’t trade a day of any of that for anything.

Is all this really worth it though? To do miss all of these things. I never want to be away this much to help others when there are so many in our own area that need the same help and would line up for hours to receive it. After the last three months I was begging to go home and be with the one’s I had to leave behind. Along with a glass of crown of course to settle the nerves a bit and missing birthdays is defiantly not something I want to miss…. For my family or my immediate family.. My brother and sister, mom, and dad… Aunts, uncles..  At first it was a lot of fun… Stationed in Florida for two years.. HA.. I was 20 then. That was a blast. Doing this is like a split deployment of 6 or 7 months with some of the most horrible planners/logistics I have ever seen. There is a saying that goes around that says if you do nothing but complain all day, you will never be happy, but honestly…  I smile and say another Sunday has pasted instead and it doesn’t help a damn bit lol. Maybe that’s the politics of it though. Just do the job, don’t complain, and let me watch you fail a few times which I’ll yell at you about, but you’re trying really hard so I’ll let you continue to do the same job…. Common Sense maybe???  (laughs) there’s a phrase around here that we hear pretty often “If it makes sense, we are going to do the opposite instead because the other option is easier and maybe more cost effective”. You have a team of people that you send out to look at the same 10 to 20 things 10 days prior to you arriving there, and when you finally get there it’s still messed up one way or the other. I’m sure there is some major things that are right, but the things that are wrong aren’t exactly small things either. Is it because some things are just that way or that maybe you knew about what was going to be needed to be done and two months ago when you found out about it, nobody thought the research could have started then… You have masses of people at your control to move as you need to…

This is normally one of those times that you look at the person and say.. Damn, chill the hell out already… But how many yes people are there. If you have future notice and a different group of people have done the same thing before… common sense says maybe your last lessons learned needs to be re-evaluated and taken into heavy consideration. It’s like telling your cable guy to make a house call when you won’t be there, why try if nothing is going to get fixed. No common sense what so ever. So many different things to look for in 10days time and still it’s a failure. How many times will it take to turn on the light bulb?

 I’m no politician, but whoever’s idea this was needs to be beat again with dumb stick in 105 degree heat. This way when he’s sore from the beating and tired from the heat he’ll have a small insight of what this is really all about.

The Beatings Will Continue Until Moral Improves